Story Name: Fallen
Author: Blade or HurricaneGurl41
Distribution: Fanfiction.Net, and if any of you want to post it, just ask first.
Summary: A girl finds out her parents have died, can her Best friend Jeff Hardy save her or is he too late.
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the WWE Superstars in my Story, they all own themselves and the WWE owns their characters. This is pure fan fiction.
Rating: PG
I sit in Jeff's arms still trying to piece it all together. My parents are gone. They will never come back. Why did this have to happen to me! Why not someone else? I can't understand why God would do this to me? I had never been a bad kid. Not usually at least, I couldn't steal nor could I lie well. I usually would say a small prayer at night to help a loved one. But why would this happen? While still contemplating this Jeff's cell phone rings. The ring brings me back to the world. I realize I had blacked out.
"Ya what?" Jeff said loudly in a worried tone into his phone.
"Hey Jeff it's Shane where are you and Morgy, her and I have a tag match 5 minutes out of Cameron you guys should be here!" Shane said.
"Shane get to Morgan's house NOW!!" Jeff yelled into the phone. Shane didn't understand.
"Jeff her and I have a." he was cut off by a very upset and angered Jeff.
"SHANE HER PARENTS JUST DIED INA PLANE CRASH!! GET YOUR FUCKING ASS OVER HERE NOW!!" he yelled. Shane getting the point hung up and arrived about 20 minutes later with Shannon and Matt. They all came and sat on the floor with me and Jeff.
"Baby come here." Shane said. Shane and I had been dating for about 4 months now and I trusted him almost as much as Jeff. I slowly moved away from Jeff and crawled over to Shane. I was still very pale and confused.
"Shane they're gone!" I started not able to finish. I couldn't speak without tearing and hurting. No one understood how I felt. I was the only girl in a room full of Guys. The only ones who came close to comprehending were Matt and Jeff. But even they still had a dad. I was now an orphan. No parents and I had no family either. My grand parents had passed away before my birth and my parents had both been only children. Where would I stay?
"Morgy?" Jeff asked trying to smile but he too was sad. Everyone in this room I had known and loved since I was young. They had all considered my parents as their own. As I considered theirs. They all somewhat felt as I did. But I had received the full blast. It is at this moment where my journey began. My dark journey through my own personal hell. "Morgan, I love you we all do, but you have to talk to us.you have to tell us who your legal guardian is?"
"I don't have one Jeff. I'm officially an orphan I have no money no parents and soon no house. I'm gonna have to live in a fucking box giving blow jobs for cash!" I cried trying to sound funny.
"You have a home Morgy, Jeff and I, and dad you can live with us, but the hole blow job thing can stay!" Matt said finally breaking the silence trying to make me laugh in the process. It worked. I could live with them and I wouldn't mind It was only a few minutes away.
"You mean it? I could live with you guys?" I asked smiling a bit. I still knew I was depressed as hell and felt like dieing but none of them seemed to notice, none but Jeff. He was staring at me and I saw in his eyes a fear of what I might do.
"Ya toally!" Matt said.
"Hear that baby?" Shane asked kissing me softly and comfortingly on my lips "You can stay in Cameron and live with the HARDYS not that that's a good thing but at least you can stay here!" he said smiling at Matt's angered look.
"Guys want to help me get my stuff together?" I asked smiling faintly.
"Sure" they all said together. They all headed to my room with Jeff and I at the back.
"You aren't alright are you? And don't bother lying to me cause you can't. we'll talk at home ok sweetie?" He said kissing my forehead.
"Ok Jeff, just don't tell them I don't want them to worry it's my life let me deal with it as I will!" I said harshly. He smiled and nodded. After about 2 hours we had my room cleaned out and I took all the money I could find in the house and I took the will's of my parent's as well. I received a call from Gil. He too had heard of the crash and invited me personally to live there.
As we got to the house, I grabbed my bags and lugged them into the spare room where Shane was staying and then I went into Jeff's room to talk.
"Ok now Morgy don't kill yourself over this it's not your fault this happened!" he said sincerely. Giving me the same speech I had given him after his mom passed away.
"Jeff let me deal ok!" I shouted frustrated with everything. Let me tell you something I'm damn stubborn. I'm worse then a donkey once I have my mind set on something it stays set.
"Morgan Lee Kith! Listen to me I love you ok. You don't understand Morgan you never will. You mean more to me then Matt then anyone. Just don't hurt yourself over this!! And I mean something like what you tried to pull before with the knife. I still haven't told anyone but if it happens again I will!" he said sternly. This was the first time he had ever yelled at me. I knew it was for my own good but it was still a shock. And he was frustrated cause he only used my full name when he was angry or depressed or frustrated.
"Jeff I'm sorry I just want to try on my own. I don't want to hurt anyone. I don't want Shane to get involved cause I'll hurt him like I almost hurt you. God Jeff I love you too! But you have Beth and I have Shane and it could never be so drop it. And I just need time to vent so let me have my space!" I said equally as frustrated.
"Whatever you want Morgan, but the second something isn't right you come to me. I'm always here and I promised to make it all better. No matter the cost I'll do it for you. " he said as I was about to leave. I stopped and walked over to him. He hugged me. I looked into his gorgeous green eyes. I had to turn away.
I was so tempted to just go out and kiss him. But with Shane there it wasn't right. The hole thing wasn't right. I felt like Jeff was all I needed like he was all I wanted. But I loved Shane I was just more confused then before with all this Jeff stuff getting thrown in was making my head hurt worse. I though I was going to die if I didn't fucking kiss his lips. So I did. Right there and then I turned to him and all out frenched him. I knew it was wrong. I knew I would be in trouble with Shane and he would be in trouble with Beth. But in my confusion I just didn't care anymore.
He kissed me back. It was amazing. I won't lie to you I wished it lasted longer then those few short seconds. After it we sort of dismissed the fact that it ever happened. But it did. And wee both enjoyed it. Now I was more lost then before. Was I making my own little hell on Earth? Was I punishing myself for something I didn't do but blamed myself for?
"Morgan, we can't please just stop. I want you so bad now, but you have to be with Shane. I have to be with Beth." Jeff said as he continued to hold me and kiss my neck between each word.
"Jeff, I'm so lost I just want something that makes sense, that's you!" I said kissing him as I spoke. "Jeff your right though." I said as I pushed him off me. We were both breathing hard. We sat on his bed for awhile sorting through our own minds. "I'm sorry Jeff what I did was uncalled for forgive me?" I said lying to him straight up.
"I forgive you, and can you forgive me?" he asked lying just as badly as I had.
"Ya I better go to Shane he'll be wondering why we took so long. But Jeff I do love you. And I trust you more then anybody else. You are my rock my one real thing in this world. You are the only thing that makes sense now a day. So please never change!" I said tearing as I did.
"I know baby I know. It is the same for me. But until you figure stuff out I wouldn't know if it was because you really felt that way r if it was just to feel better. You understand right babe?" he said softly in my ear. All I could do was nod. I tried so hard to fight back the tears. "Ok then baby go to Shane." He said helping me up and walking me to the door.
I walked into the spare room I would share with Shane that night. My room. He was on the bed smiling.
"Hey baby" he said. He walked up to me and kissed me softly. We then went into the bed and I lay between his strong loving arms trying to but things into perspective. Needless to say I didn't sleep at all. I couldn't get out the thought of what Jeff and I had done, or how right it had felt. But I knew it was wrong. It was just to feel better. Or was it?
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I lay in Shane's arms thinking deeply. Why was I still here on this world? I should be with my parents. I don't belong with such a loving boyfriend when it is just so easy for me to cheat on him. And lastly I don't deserve a friend like Jeff who would so willingly be there every waking moment of my life. I made up my mind there that slowly, but surely I would end it all.
I got up and walked silently down to the kitchen. Once I had made sure everyone was asleep, I snuck into the pantry and pulled out a small but sharp knife. I sit silently on the floor in the upstairs bathroom thinking. I then place the knife upon my pale skin. I push on it hard. The pain is welcomed by me and so is the ruby red blood which flows out. I think of the pain like I deserve it. I know deep down I'm hurting not only myself but everyone who loves me. But all that matters is the pain. I need it. It makes me feel real. The blood trickles down. I realize this after it has stained the carpet.
I wrap my arm up in a tensor bandage. If anyone asks my reply will be I sprained it. Nobody has to know it is my life after all as long as I can love and be loved and wrestle that's all I need. I snuggle back in with Shane. He still has not woken up. He will have no idea I left him for any time this night. Nobody will.
"Morning Morgan" I hear Shane whisper into my ear while nibbling my ear gently. He then sits up right. I realize why. The blood from my bandage has seeped through. It is all over the bed. I feel so weak I can hardly move at all. "God Morgan what did you do to yourself baby. Morgan?" Shane's voice becomes more and more faint. I realize I will soon be with my family. Where I belong.
"MORGAN!!!" I hear another voice more familiar. It is Jeff he has seen the bloody mess. He runs to the bed. "Morgan no please baby stay with me I need you to saty with me ok." He said petting my head and holding me tightly. "SHANE GET MY DAD NOW. CALL AN ABULANCE HURRY!" I hear Jeff commanding Shane. Shane obeys.
"Jeff" I begin weakly. I will be at peace let me go" I continue he kisses my lips to quiet me.
"No Morgan. You may have given up. But I will never give up on you baby remember last night. That can happen again if you stay with me." He said tearing up. Like before it broke me up inside to see him cry. I gave into him. He kissed me again. This time he was more passionate.
"Jeff for you I will stay. Don't tell Shane." Those were my last words to him that day. I blacked out once more. Shane came in and Jeff picked me up and took me to the ambulance.
They took me to the hospital where I received a transfusion and lived. My first visitor was of course Jeff. He came in with flowers and a teddy bear just for me. I was only semi awake and on lots of drugs so I could hardly talk.
"Morgan. You ok babe? I brought you some stuff. The doctors say you can come home tomorrow and dad said I can spend tonight here with you. Also I didn't tell Shane I will never if you ask me not to. But he should know sooner or later. I told Beth last night her and I are history but then again things weren't all good there anyways. Once you get back home dad asked me to watch over you. Morgan you promised me. But I understand where your coming from." Jeff said still very frusterated and upset.
"So your not mad then?" I asked weakly.
"I'm mad but come on Morgy how long can I stay mad at you?" he replied smiling he leaned in a kissed my forehead.
"Jeff I do love you but until I figure this shit out we can't let it out." I said trying to sit up but not getting anywhere.
"I know sweetheart don't worry. Like you said last night I'm your rock your one thing that makes sense I'm not going to let you down and make no sense to you. I'm your best friend and I always will be. Just please never do that again!" he said trying to hide his evident fear.
"I won't I promise Jeff." I said lying. He knew perfectly well I was lying too but he chose to dismiss it.not wanting to start a fight in the hospital while I was weak enough as it was.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~Hardy's house*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Shane had gone home reluctantly and Jeff was spending the night in the spare room with me since I was no longer trusted by anyone to sleep on my own. Not to say I didn't enjoy company I felt so babied. I hated it. Someone had to be watching me at all times doctors orders.
"Jeff I'm fine let me go to the bathroom on my own!" I found myself screaming that so often that it was like my new saying. They were all over me. I didn't even want to kill myself anymore. Being in this house. Where I felt so safe only days before, was now my hell on earth. No one noticed at first. I acted somewhat normal. After about the first 2 weeks I began to talk to only Jeff after the first month even that stopped somewhat. I just tried so hard but they all made life so trouble filled. So difficult.
"Morgan we have to talk." Jeff said to me one day.
"There is nothing to talk about Jeff." Was my answer as I became consumed in my art works. They are probably the only thing that kept me sane in that house. Everyday I would paint or draw or air brush a new picture. My room had become covered from wall to floor with them. Jeff had helped me make most of them but I still would seclude myself in my room for hours or days on end.
"Morgan, your secluding yourself from everyone, myself included. Morgan why I love you so much and you just shut me out why!" he asked me finally stated knowing that would hit me hard.
"Jeff because no one can help me ok!! I fucked myself up trying to kill myself and now I have no freedom I fucked things up with you and soon I will have to fess them up to Shane. My life is a fucking train wreck Jeff that's why I seclude myself. SO I DON'T HURT ANYONE ANYMORE. THAT'S ALL I SEEM TO DO NOW A DAYS IS HURT PEOPLE." I said beginning to cry. "Jeff please make it stop!" I choked out before falling into his arms and completely breaking down.
