*!Surrender!*

began to cry even more in Jeff's arms not knowing myself anymore. Confused as hell about everything. First I screw up in school. Then my parents die. Then I try to kill myself, then I fall for my best friend while I have a boyfriend. I didn't think life could get any worse. Would you believe me when I say it did?

"Morgy I know how you feel sweetie, trust me I do. But you need to snap out of it. Living like you are now you are as good as dead. I talked to Shane yesterday. He said you haven't talked to him in over a week. Like he would say WHATS UP WIT DAT!? " Jeff said smiling and trying to get me to smile.

"Jeff, I can't.I'll hurt him.He can never know about us.I mean. Gd I love you just as much as him if not more, but I still have feelings for him I'm just so lost!" I replied cuddling into Jeff's strong body.

"I know but you'll have to tell him one day." Jeff replied matter-of- factly.

"I know I have so paintings to finish Jeff so I'll talk to you to tomorrow." I said

'Alright Night Morgy." He said kissing me softly and leaving my room. It was now or never. I picked up the backpack that I had hidden in my closet. It contained clothes and other valuables I would need including money Paints and pencils and paper. I would run away I didn't care to where to get my freedom back. They'd forget about me eventually anyways. I just needed to see the world. I had had enough of that house, of everyone. I began a letter to Jeff explaining everything.

'Dear Jeff, I'm sorry I lied to you. I need out of this hell. Tell everyone everything about me about us. Tell Shane I love him and I have his gift on my night stand for our 6 month anniversary. Tell him I got his too and I took it with. Tell Matt he was by far the worst big brother I ever had. Tell Shannon I miss my prank buddy. And Jeff I love you and I will miss my best friend the most. Jeff this part is for you only. Cell phone # (567) 234-8767 call me after 3days I should have a place by then. Then sneak out and come to visit. But I'm never coming back there Jeff never.

Love Always Morgan Lee Kith'

I put the letter beside Shane's gift. I grabbed all my stuff and began to descend out of my window. I took one last look at the hell house and ran as far as I could. I hadn't realized where I had stopped. I was right in Shannon's back yard, and he was there looking at me in shock.

"Morgan? What the fuck are you doing? Your supposed to be in the Hardy's house.Your running away aren't you?" he asked still a bit taken aback.

"Ya Shannon I am I can't take their shit anymore. I'm sorry Shan but you can't tell anyone! Promise me!" I said yelling at him to be silent.

"Fine but.. why?" he asked.

"Because Shannon my life was fucked up and I did dumb shit I need to start over find myself again. You understand right? I'm leaving North Carolina, I'm leaving you guys. God I'll miss you all so much!" I said running to him and hugging him tightly.

"I'll miss you to Morgy, but you do what you need to do. You're a big girl now, you can make your own decisions. I stand behind you all the way. You know that right?" he asked smiling at me.

"Ya I do now I have to run to the train station." I said about to take off when a hand pulled me back stopped me.

"Morgan how about we drive you since we all saw the note." Said a familiar voice, but it was not Shannon.

"O god, Shane!" I said passing out.

I awoke in a car, the driver was Shane and he looked really mad. Jeff was in the back with Shannon and I. I opened my eyes fully and realized we were on our way to the train station.

"What the hell!" I said trying t get up but Shannon and Jeff held me down.

"How could you Morgan? I loved you!" Shane said in a blind rage.

"I.I'm sorry Shane you weren't supposed to know until I was long gone. I was out of it and so depressed I needed some thing that." I was cut short bye Shane looking at me with a gun in his hand.

"I loved you Morgan. I really did and you go and have a fling behind my back with this cunt!" he said pointing the gun at Jeff.

"Ok Shane man calm down!" Jeff said holding me down. "It was my fault don't hurt any of us man ok? We didn't do anything that wrong!" Jeff said defensively.

"Right you juts took advantage of my girlfriend while she was lost and confused." Shane Said Shane still pointing the gun at Jeff. We had pulled over at this point.

"Shane it was my fault now let Shan and Jeff go and we can talk this over ok sweetie?" I said trying to reason with him. I had never seen him act like this ever. He always had seemed like such a kind soul.

"No I don't want to talk to some penny crack whore!" he screamed. I hadn't known how much I ment to him.

"Shane buddy what the fuck do I have to do with this shit and you should let us go buddy before some one does something stupid." Shannon said.

"Shan you were going to let her leave us! You would have let her go and left without me! She is mine!" he said seeming more crazy then before.

"Please Shane let us go please!" I said becoming hysterical. How could he do this to us? We were his friends!

"Fine they go you stay." He said and I agreed but they were the ones who refused.

"No Morgan your not staying in here with him while he's pissed off with a gun." Jeff said holding me tightly to him.

I look up at Jeff he is so worried and so sincere. I look then towards Shannon he too looks as sincere and worried as Jeff. I hadn't realized how much people cared about me.

"Jeff" I whispered into his ear "I'm going to do something to distract him, you and Shan get out as fast as you guys can I'll be right behind you ok?" I said softly.

"Alright, but if it looks bad, I'm coming back to get you." He replied and whispered to Shannon.

I sat up looked into Shane's eyes and slapped his face as hard as I could and then I scrached his face till it bled and ran out after Jeff and Shan. Shane was furious and took a shot at me he missed me.Or was he never aiming for me?

I look ahead as Jeff fell to the ground with a pool of blood forming around him. I let a cry of desperation as I collapse beside him.

"JEFF!!! O GOD! JEFF TALK TO ME BABY STAY HERE PLEASE I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU!" I screamed in horror. My best friend, my lover he can't die. Not so soon after all this other shit happened, Shane hopped back into the car and drove away at top speed. Shannon kneeled beside me and heeld me as I began to break down once more.

"Shhhh, it's ok Morgy lets call 911 and they'll help Jeffro ok sweetie?" he said kissing my forehead. I nodded. Jeff then opened his eyes and looked into mine.

"Morgan I'm going to live, cause I promised you." he blacked out from the pain. But he wasn't too badly hurt. He had been shot in the arm. But he was losing lots of blood.

The ambulance came and took us into North Carolina once more. Gil and Matt were already there. They hugged Shannon and I and we all waited for Jeff in the waiting room. I still felt so responsible for all of this. It's then that my hell was re-started. The thoughts of pain returned and so did the urge to bleed.