*!Everybodys Fool!*

I lay in Shane's arms thinking deeply. Why was I still here on this world? I should be with my parents. I don't belong with such a loving boyfriend when it is just so easy for me to cheat on him. And lastly I don't deserve a friend like Jeff who would so willingly be there every waking moment of my life. I made up my mind there that slowly, but surely I would end it all.

I got up and walked silently down to the kitchen. Once I had made sure everyone was asleep, I snuck into the pantry and pulled out a small but sharp knife. I sit silently on the floor in the upstairs bathroom thinking. I then place the knife upon my pale skin. I push on it hard. The pain is welcomed by me and so is the ruby red blood which flows out. I think of the pain like I deserve it. I know deep down I'm hurting not only myself but everyone who loves me. But all that matters is the pain. I need it. It makes me feel real. The blood trickles down. I realize this after it has stained the carpet.

I wrap my arm up in a tensor bandage. If anyone asks my reply will be I sprained it. Nobody has to know it is my life after all as long as I can love and be loved and wrestle that's all I need. I snuggle back in with Shane. He still has not woken up. He will have no idea I left him for any time this night. Nobody will.

"Morning Morgan" I hear Shane whisper into my ear while nibbling my ear gently. He then sits up right. I realize why. The blood from my bandage has seeped through. It is all over the bed. I feel so weak I can hardly move at all. "God Morgan what did you do to yourself baby. Morgan?" Shane's voice becomes more and more faint. I realize I will soon be with my family. Where I belong.

"MORGAN!!!" I hear another voice more familiar. It is Jeff he has seen the bloody mess. He runs to the bed. "Morgan no please baby stay with me I need you to saty with me ok." He said petting my head and holding me tightly. "SHANE GET MY DAD NOW. CALL AN ABULANCE HURRY!" I hear Jeff commanding Shane. Shane obeys.

"Jeff" I begin weakly. I will be at peace let me go" I continue he kisses my lips to quiet me.

"No Morgan. You may have given up. But I will never give up on you baby remember last night. That can happen again if you stay with me." He said tearing up. Like before it broke me up inside to see him cry. I gave into him. He kissed me again. This time he was more passionate.

"Jeff for you I will stay. Don't tell Shane." Those were my last words to him that day. I blacked out once more. Shane came in and Jeff picked me up and took me to the ambulance.

They took me to the hospital where I received a transfusion and lived. My first visitor was of course Jeff. He came in with flowers and a teddy bear just for me. I was only semi awake and on lots of drugs so I could hardly talk.

"Morgan. You ok babe? I brought you some stuff. The doctors say you can come home tomorrow and dad said I can spend tonight here with you. Also I didn't tell Shane I will never if you ask me not to. But he should know sooner or later. I told Beth last night her and I are history but then again things weren't all good there anyways. Once you get back home dad asked me to watch over you. Morgan you promised me. But I understand where your coming from." Jeff said still very frusterated and upset.

"So your not mad then?" I asked weakly.

"I'm mad but come on Morgy how long can I stay mad at you?" he replied smiling he leaned in a kissed my forehead.

"Jeff I do love you but until I figure this shit out we can't let it out." I said trying to sit up but not getting anywhere.

"I know sweetheart don't worry. Like you said last night I'm your rock your one thing that makes sense I'm not going to let you down and make no sense to you. I'm your best friend and I always will be. Just please never do that again!" he said trying to hide his evident fear.

"I won't I promise Jeff." I said lying. He knew perfectly well I was lying too but he chose to dismiss it.not wanting to start a fight in the hospital while I was weak enough as it was.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~Hardy's house*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Shane had gone home reluctantly and Jeff was spending the night in the spare room with me since I was no longer trusted by anyone to sleep on my own. Not to say I didn't enjoy company I felt so babied. I hated it. Someone had to be watching me at all times doctors orders.

"Jeff I'm fine let me go to the bathroom on my own!" I found myself screaming that so often that it was like my new saying. They were all over me. I didn't even want to kill myself anymore. Being in this house. Where I felt so safe only days before, was now my hell on earth. No one noticed at first. I acted somewhat normal. After about the first 2 weeks I began to talk to only Jeff after the first month even that stopped somewhat. I just tried so hard but they all made life so trouble filled. So difficult.

"Morgan we have to talk." Jeff said to me one day.

"There is nothing to talk about Jeff." Was my answer as I became consumed in my art works. They are probably the only thing that kept me sane in that house. Everyday I would paint or draw or air brush a new picture. My room had become covered from wall to floor with them. Jeff had helped me make most of them but I still would seclude myself in my room for hours or days on end.

"Morgan, your secluding yourself from everyone, myself included. Morgan why I love you so much and you just shut me out why!" he asked me finally stated knowing that would hit me hard.

"Jeff because no one can help me ok!! I fucked myself up trying to kill myself and now I have no freedom I fucked things up with you and soon I will have to fess them up to Shane. My life is a fucking train wreck Jeff that's why I seclude myself. SO I DON'T HURT ANYONE ANYMORE. THAT'S ALL I SEEM TO DO NOW A DAYS IS HURT PEOPLE." I said beginning to cry. "Jeff please make it stop!" I choked out before falling into his arms and completely breaking down.