*!Fields Of Innocence!*

I sit in Jeff's arms still trying to piece it all together. My parents are gone. They will never come back. Why did this have to happen to me! Why not someone else? I can't understand why God would do this to me? I had never been a bad kid. Not usually at least, I couldn't steal nor could I lie well. I usually would say a small prayer at night to help a loved one. But why would this happen? While still contemplating this Jeff's cell phone rings. The ring brings me back to the world. I realize I had blacked out.

"Ya what?" Jeff said loudly in a worried tone into his phone.

"Hey Jeff it's Shane where are you and Morgy, her and I have a tag match 5 minutes out of Cameron you guys should be here!" Shane said.

"Shane get to Morgan's house NOW!!" Jeff yelled into the phone. Shane didn't understand.

"Jeff her and I have a." he was cut off by a very upset and angered Jeff.

"SHANE HER PARENTS JUST DIED INA PLANE CRASH!! GET YOUR FUCKING ASS OVER HERE NOW!!" he yelled. Shane getting the point hung up and arrived about 20 minutes later with Shannon and Matt. They all came and sat on the floor with me and Jeff.

"Baby come here." Shane said. Shane and I had been dating for about 4 months now and I trusted him almost as much as Jeff. I slowly moved away from Jeff and crawled over to Shane. I was still very pale and confused.

"Shane they're gone!" I started not able to finish. I couldn't speak without tearing and hurting. No one understood how I felt. I was the only girl in a room full of Guys. The only ones who came close to comprehending were Matt and Jeff. But even they still had a dad. I was now an orphan. No parents and I had no family either. My grand parents had passed away before my birth and my parents had both been only children. Where would I stay?

"Morgy?" Jeff asked trying to smile but he too was sad. Everyone in this room I had known and loved since I was young. They had all considered my parents as their own. As I considered theirs. They all somewhat felt as I did. But I had received the full blast. It is at this moment where my journey began. My dark journey through my own personal hell. "Morgan, I love you we all do, but you have to talk to us.you have to tell us who your legal guardian is?"

"I don't have one Jeff. I'm officially an orphan I have no money no parents and soon no house. I'm gonna have to live in a fucking box giving blow jobs for cash!" I cried trying to sound funny.

"You have a home Morgy, Jeff and I, and dad you can live with us, but the hole blow job thing can stay!" Matt said finally breaking the silence trying to make me laugh in the process. It worked. I could live with them and I wouldn't mind It was only a few minutes away.

"You mean it? I could live with you guys?" I asked smiling a bit. I still knew I was depressed as hell and felt like dieing but none of them seemed to notice, none but Jeff. He was staring at me and I saw in his eyes a fear of what I might do.

"Ya toally!" Matt said.

"Hear that baby?" Shane asked kissing me softly and comfortingly on my lips "You can stay in Cameron and live with the HARDYS not that that's a good thing but at least you can stay here!" he said smiling at Matt's angered look.

"Guys want to help me get my stuff together?" I asked smiling faintly.

"Sure" they all said together. They all headed to my room with Jeff and I at the back.

"You aren't alright are you? And don't bother lying to me cause you can't. we'll talk at home ok sweetie?" He said kissing my forehead.

"Ok Jeff, just don't tell them I don't want them to worry it's my life let me deal with it as I will!" I said harshly. He smiled and nodded. After about 2 hours we had my room cleaned out and I took all the money I could find in the house and I took the will's of my parent's as well. I received a call from Gil. He too had heard of the crash and invited me personally to live there.

As we got to the house, I grabbed my bags and lugged them into the spare room where Shane was staying and then I went into Jeff's room to talk.

"Ok now Morgy don't kill yourself over this it's not your fault this happened!" he said sincerely. Giving me the same speech I had given him after his mom passed away.

"Jeff let me deal ok!" I shouted frustrated with everything. Let me tell you something I'm damn stubborn. I'm worse then a donkey once I have my mind set on something it stays set.

"Morgan Lee Kith! Listen to me I love you ok. You don't understand Morgan you never will. You mean more to me then Matt then anyone. Just don't hurt yourself over this!! And I mean something like what you tried to pull before with the knife. I still haven't told anyone but if it happens again I will!" he said sternly. This was the first time he had ever yelled at me. I knew it was for my own good but it was still a shock. And he was frustrated cause he only used my full name when he was angry or depressed or frustrated.

"Jeff I'm sorry I just want to try on my own. I don't want to hurt anyone. I don't want Shane to get involved cause I'll hurt him like I almost hurt you. God Jeff I love you too! But you have Beth and I have Shane and it could never be so drop it. And I just need time to vent so let me have my space!" I said equally as frustrated.

"Whatever you want Morgan, but the second something isn't right you come to me. I'm always here and I promised to make it all better. No matter the cost I'll do it for you. " he said as I was about to leave. I stopped and walked over to him. He hugged me. I looked into his gorgeous green eyes. I had to turn away.

I was so tempted to just go out and kiss him. But with Shane there it wasn't right. The hole thing wasn't right. I felt like Jeff was all I needed like he was all I wanted. But I loved Shane I was just more confused then before with all this Jeff stuff getting thrown in was making my head hurt worse. I though I was going to die if I didn't fucking kiss his lips. So I did. Right there and then I turned to him and all out frenched him. I knew it was wrong. I knew I would be in trouble with Shane and he would be in trouble with Beth. But in my confusion I just didn't care anymore.

He kissed me back. It was amazing. I won't lie to you I wished it lasted longer then those few short seconds. After it we sort of dismissed the fact that it ever happened. But it did. And wee both enjoyed it. Now I was more lost then before. Was I making my own little hell on Earth? Was I punishing myself for something I didn't do but blamed myself for?

"Morgan, we can't please just stop. I want you so bad now, but you have to be with Shane. I have to be with Beth." Jeff said as he continued to hold me and kiss my neck between each word.

"Jeff, I'm so lost I just want something that makes sense, that's you!" I said kissing him as I spoke. "Jeff your right though." I said as I pushed him off me. We were both breathing hard. We sat on his bed for awhile sorting through our own minds. "I'm sorry Jeff what I did was uncalled for forgive me?" I said lying to him straight up.

"I forgive you, and can you forgive me?" he asked lying just as badly as I had.

"Ya I better go to Shane he'll be wondering why we took so long. But Jeff I do love you. And I trust you more then anybody else. You are my rock my one real thing in this world. You are the only thing that makes sense now a day. So please never change!" I said tearing as I did.

"I know baby I know. It is the same for me. But until you figure stuff out I wouldn't know if it was because you really felt that way r if it was just to feel better. You understand right babe?" he said softly in my ear. All I could do was nod. I tried so hard to fight back the tears. "Ok then baby go to Shane." He said helping me up and walking me to the door.

I walked into the spare room I would share with Shane that night. My room. He was on the bed smiling.

"Hey baby" he said. He walked up to me and kissed me softly. We then went into the bed and I lay between his strong loving arms trying to but things into perspective. Needless to say I didn't sleep at all. I couldn't get out the thought of what Jeff and I had done, or how right it had felt. But I knew it was wrong. It was just to feel better. Or was it?