*!When You Said Those Words To Me!*

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"Jeff you know I don't mind you coming over anytime you want, but do you want to talk about it?" Shane asked as his buddy sat down on the couch in his living room.

"Talk about what?"

"What's eating you up man? That face you've made since you walked through my door is not a 'just want to hang out' face."

"Shane it's a combination of things. I just don't like the way I feel right now."

"Does this have to do with Matt?"

"Yeah I punched him out tonight and I'd never thought I'd go to that extreme with him. He pisses me off, but I still love him, and brothers just don't do that."

"Did you hit him over a girl?"

"Yeah."

"Then a different set of rules apply here. When there is a girl involved, all bets are off on the brother angle. Is it the girl that Matt cheated on with Amy?"

"Yeah, the thing is Shane, she's so wonderful and she had this whole energy around her. It makes you want to be with her all the time."

"So how do you feel about her man?"

"I like her, I always have, but I never did anything about it because she was in love with Matt. I didn't want to cause any stress between the two of them."

"You know what man? Tell her, I mean it can't be any worse then being cheated on. I know you Jeff, and I'm hoping she does by now too. You would never intentionally hurt someone that you care about, so I think you should just be honest with her on this one."

"You know what's really ironic about this whole thing Shane? Vince and Eric actually came up with a storyline for her while she's injured. Remember when she came out for our match on Monday with my paint on her face? Well apparently people in the back were talking and Vince wants us together on screen."

"There's your chance man! You get to kiss the girl in the name of work. Use that to your advantage Jeff. Don't not do anything, because you might regret it later."

"You know me pretty well right buddy? I mean I do some messed up things to my body and I'll be the first to admit I'm different from everyone else, but when it comes to personal stuff and situations, I'm just shy as hell. If I do something and she rejects it, I've lost a friend. I don't really know if I want to take that risk at this point."

"What if she's just as into it as you are? Would you want to lose that too? What's the other alternative? You have to go and tell her. Be yourself because if you try to be someone other then Jeff Hardy, she's going to see right through it."

"I don't know Shane. I just know that this is eating me up inside. I know Matt's going to be pissed and her reaction might not be much better. I don't know if it's worth it."

"I can't make up your mind for you man. Do what you feel is right for you."

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Summer helped Matt off the floor and smiled. Jeff had done exactly what she'd wanted to do since she walked in on him and Amy. She kind of felt bad for Matt though. It had to suck coming from your only brother.

"Are you alright Matt?"

"Aside from the fact that I just got pounded by my little brother, I think I'm fine."

"Matt you had to realize you had that coming. Not only for what you did to me, but for accusing me and Jeff of sleeping together. He only did what I'd been thinking of doing all week."

"You were really going to hit me?"

"Why wouldn't I Matt Hardy?"

"Maybe because you don't want to ruin this face?"

Summer laughed. It felt so good to laugh like this again. She almost forgot that the reason she wasn't laughing was because of Matt. Walking up to her Matt put his hand on her cheek. He missed her, even though he was the reason they weren't together.

Summer looked up at Matt, trying the whole time to remember that this was the same guy that a week ago had cheated on her. As she looked into his eyes, she saw the Matt from the beginning, and she missed him. Missed how he made her feel.

"I'm going to kiss you Summer, I miss you." She just nodded as he brought his lips to hers. Their kiss started out slow, as they both became used to one another, but as the kiss lingered on, so did the urgency. Matt hungrily stuck his tongue deep into her mouth, urging her for more. Feeling Matt's need Summer matched him, by having her tongue meet up with his, deepening the kiss.

Summer grabbed a hold of his shirt and pulled him to the couch with her. In the passion of the moment, he started to undo her pants. He found himself wanting to make love to her so badly, even after everything he'd done, and he could see from the way she was responding, that she was ready as well. Summer started to undo the buttons on Matt's shirt and she slowly found her thoughts drifting to Jeff and the electricity she felt when he looked at her. She stopped suddenly and pulled away from Matt.

"I can't do this Matt."

"Why not Summer? I can feel that you want this like I do." Matt said proceeding to kiss her again.

"Do you even have to ask? God Matt, you know what read this. I'm just thankful I didn't send it." Summer pulled away and yanked the letter out of her purse; throwing it to him and watching him open it.

Matt opened the letter and skimmed over the words and sighed. This now made him feel even worse; he had no idea what she was planning for him. Her words stuck in his head as he replayed the letter over in his head.

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"I know how patient you've been with me, but I'm ready now"

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"God Summer, what did I do to us?"

"Only you can answer that question Matt. You're the one who wasn't being satisfied."

"You do satisfy me! I screwed up here, and I did something I shouldn't have."

"Matt, let me make something clear to you, and then I want you to leave, because having you here is too much. I love you, and I always have since the day I met you. There was just something about you that stuck with me. When I found you and Amy on the very night that I wanted you to be my first lover, well sweetheart you broke my heart. It's still not mended, it might never be, to be honest with you, but there's someone who is slowly helping it mend. It's nothing serious, he doesn't even have a clue he's doing it, but it's there and I have to be completely honest with you."

Matt came closer to her and touched her face. As much as he loved her and wanted to fix what he'd done, he just couldn't, and he had to accept that. It just wasn't a possibility anymore.

"I'm leaving alright? Thank you for being everything that I couldn't be. I love you so much, and eventually I'd love to be in your life.. As a friend.

Matt let go of her face and walked out the door. It was the hardest thing he'd ever had to do, but there wasn't any other alternative.

Summer leaned up against her door and just let the tears fall. Saying goodbye to him was one of the hardest things she'd ever had to do, and she realized that things were never going to be the same again. She had to pick up and move on.

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