*!Dont Stop Dancing!*

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"You really want me to come to the doctor with you Hayley?" Shane asked cradling the phone under his chin. He'd been visiting Summer and Jeff when she'd called over there asking for him.

"Yeah, do you think you can make it? I would do it alone, but it seems better having someone with me this time."

"Okay, I will be right over to take you there. Just sit tight alright?"

Shane said his goodbyes and hung up the phone. The truth was, as close as they had gotten over the last month, him loving her more then anything else, and her illness and wanting to do things alone, he thought she was pulling away from him. He didn't want to believe it, but they hadn't done a whole lot together lately. They got together and she was silent a lot of the time, and he wanted to fix it. So taking the chance to be with her, when she dealt with something serious, he had to take it.

Jeff looked up from the table. "She wants you to go with her?"

"Yeah, that's the plan for today. She has to go find out if everything Is alright now, and I'm glad she asked me."

"Well she shouldn't be alone anymore right? This is better this way." Jeff managed to choke out. He still couldn't get what happened out of his head, and it was messing with him. He kept focusing on what had happened in her room the day they were alone.

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"Wow, okay Hayley this is something that can't happen." Jeff said taking a couple of steps back and sitting down in her vacant chair.

"I know it can't, and I'm sorry, it just happened."

"You don't want to tell anyone that I was the one helping you at the hospital that night because you have feelings for me?"

"No, I just.. God I made a huge mess of things haven't I?"

"No, I just don't get it. I know we've gotten closer, and I'll be the first to admit it's a good thing for me too, but I had no idea you wanted to do that."

"Neither did I. It just felt right. I can't really explain it."

"Do you love your boyfriend Hayley? I mean really love him?"

"Yes! Don't you get it, I didn't ask for all of this to happen? I didn't ask for you to be sweet, and take care of me. I want Shane to do all of that!" she said bringing herself down to the bed and sighing loudly.

"Then why don't you let him?"

"Because I can't let him get that close. Jeff, what happens if I'm still sick, like really sick and I might die? I can't have Shane there with me because I know it would kill him, and I can't do that to him, he's got such a big heart."

"But you can do it to me?"

"No..."

"Explain this Hayley because I don't get it. You could have easily had Shane here and kissed him and things would have been fine, so why was it me?"

"If something happens to me, it wouldn't be the same with you Jeff; it would be easier because you're with someone. I hate feeling this way, I do."

"Feeling what way?"

"When I'm with you, and I'm hurting, you understand it and it doesn't make me sick in a way that it does with Shane. Knowing what I can't give Shane kills me inside, and I guess kissing you was just a way for me to feel again, something other then pain."

"What did you feel?"

"I felt normal again, for just one brief second in time."

"I made you feel normal? Even though I'm the guy that has a wife downstairs with your best friend, and probably wondering why I would want to come up here alone and talk to you."

"Okay you know what Jeff, just forget this happened and go back to your life, I know I will. This was just some fucked up thing I did, and it's over, I'm sick to death about it, so it can be dropped."

"You want me to just forget what happened here?"

"Yeah I do. Can you do that for me?"

"You do realize that now I'm confused as hell right? I kissed you back Hayley, which makes me wonder why.this doesn't affect you anymore, it affects me too."

"Just forget about it. You're happy with Summer, in love, and she's my friend. I will not think about hurting her, and you're right, I do love Shane with everything in me, and he should have been the one that was here."

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"What are you thinking about in there Jeff?" Shane asked checking his buddy out. He seemed to have left the planet, and judging by the look on his face, of pure pain, it wasn't a good ride.

"Oh just some stuff I'm working on. Just some music stuff."

"Okay dude, well I'm going to pick her up and then come back so we can go riding alright?"

"Yeah man, take care of her, she's special you know?"

"I do, and I'm sure the doctor is going to tell her everything is alright. Then we can finally get back to resuming our lives."

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"Is that your boyfriend out there in the waiting room Hayley?"

"Yeah, that's Shane. He was worried about what might happen today, like I was, so he wanted to take me here."

"Well you need all the support you can get with this. Cancer is something that hits home, and hits hard. That wasn't the same guy from the surgery though was it?"

"No it wasn't. The other guy was my..it was Jeff; he's my best friend's husband. He was the only one home that day when I needed someone, so he filled in."

"Okay, well it's good you've got a lot of support."

"So what's the verdict? Can I go back to work anytime soon?"

"Hayley, the cancer has spread, and its spreading a lot quicker then we expected it too. We can try to treat it with chemo, but I don't know how much good that will do for you at this stage. We thought we got it all with the surgery, but the additional tests we took a couple of days later, well there is more abnormalities and it just seems to be getting worse."

"um.what?"

"Hayley, you might want to bring Shane in here for this, he should know what I'm telling you too."

"No, I want to hear this and deal with this myself right now... are you telling me there is no way to treat this now?"

"There are ways, but it only results in more surgery and with the way this is spreading, I don't think we would catch all of it at one time. Hayley I'm sorry, I know this isn't something you had planned on happening, but with what happened with your mother, it seems to be a mirror image. I can advise the surgery, but if we don't get everything, there is still a chance that you'll get sicker as time goes on."

"So I'm going to die is that what you're saying?"

"I'm not saying that. We can give you medication and other treatments, but I don't know if they would do their job given the degree of this illness."

"But I could die correct?"

"That's always a possibility yes. But I don't want you to start living your life like you are going to die the next day. There is a chance you could go into remission and things could be fine."

"What do I have to do Dr. Abrams?"

"I was going to book you into the hospital so we could do more tests, but under the circumstances, I'm going to advise you to go on home care for awhile. You can fly out to your job once a week, but that's all I will allow. Other then that, I need you at your house and I need to be able to monitor you, and the symptoms."

"I have to go on home care?"

"That's what I want for you yes, I think its better then being in here twenty four seven."

"I can't believe what I'm hearing here. I thought you guys found all the cancer and got rid of it. I've been feeling fine the last week or so."

"No bleeding?"

Hayley stared at the ceiling. She knew this was the time to be honest with the doctor about the bleeding after sex, and the pain that she'd been hiding from everyone again. It obviously wasn't going to get any better, and she couldn't lie to the doctor anymore.

"Yes, and pain too. I'm just good at dealing with it. I thought it was just normal now after surgery."

"It's not normal, and it means the cancer is progressing deeper, which means I had better start you on some medication right now, to prevent this from getting worse for the moment. I think you need to bring Shane in here and tell him what I've said."

"I'll do it on the way home doctor; I don't want to scare him here, that wouldn't be right."

"Well you had better do it soon, because you need all the support you can get for this. It isn't going to be easy, and you're going to have to come here every week for a checkup, and this time Hayley, don't lie to me. I need to be able to help you."

"I won't, and I'm sorry. I thought I could handle this myself."

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