*!This World Will Know, It Will Not Change Me!*

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"Why won't the doctor let us in there now? She said she was fine!" Shane exclaimed as he paced back and forth waiting for word on his girlfriend.

"They won't let us in because we aren't family Shane; the doctor told you that before, did you forget?" Summer asked putting her arms around him. She knew he was concerned and apparently with good reason. Hayley might think she had everything under control, but that wasn't the case now.

"Guys, the doctor just went back in there, so maybe when he's done, they'll let us in. I'm going to get some tea, Summer do you want anything?" Jeff asked gently.

"Yeah, the usual herbal stuff is fine, every coffee place sells it, and get Shane something to calm his nerves down, he's going mental inside right now."

"Okay, let me know what you find out when I get back."

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"Ms. Carmichael, were you aware of these symptoms before?"

"Yes sir I did. I've been back and forth to my doctor and the hospital enough times over the last few months. They didn't have a diagnosis for me though. Is there something you've found that my doctor didn't?"

"No, everything is still inconclusive at this time, but she did mention that it might be ovarian in nature. We're you aware of that?"

"Yes, that was what we were working with. I was supposed to find out some results on the x-rays I took recently, but with my work I've been busy."

"This incident shouldn't be looked at lightly, you do know that right? You seem to be working extra hard here not to focus on the medical problems you're facing. I think you should take some time off from your job, whatever it is, and relax."

"That isn't possible at the moment. I can promise you to take it easier, and to focus more on what might be wrong with me, but my job is my life."

"Then take a reduced amount of work then. I want you to see your doctor when you get home and tell her about what I've said, and have her monitor you. Ovarian Cancer is something that we deal with somewhat, but no one really knows what makes it get worse, we only know what we can do as medical professionals to make it less hard and more treatable."

"I can do that doctor, as soon as I get home. Are my friends still out in the waiting room?"

"Yes, there are two young men and a lady there, and they seem to be very concerned with you. Are any of them aware of the nature of this illness?"

"The girl knows. I told her recently what's been going on with me, but the other two guys don't. Is it possible I could see the guy with the green hair? He's my boyfriend and I know he must be worried sick about all of this right now."

"I can do that for you, as long as you plan on telling him the truth. You need all the support you can get with this Ms. Carmichael, you cannot do it alone. It's not a common cold you can just breeze by."

"I plan on telling him as soon as you let him in here doctor, there will be no question on that, and I know I can't do this alone."

"Then I'll go get him for you, I just have one more question and it's purely for medical reasons."

"Sure, what's the question?"

"Have you had sexual relations with the young man?"

"No, not yet, as I told my doctor, we recently got together and with the illness, I don't really want to take a chance right away, especially when he doesn't have a clue what's wrong."

"So there has been no bleeding then?"

"No there is, but not because of us sleeping together, just abnormal bleeding in general."

"Okay, I will mark it all down on the chart you have with us, and pass it all along to your doctor. I'll get the gentleman for you now. Remember what I said though Hayley, do take it easy."

"I will. I think I have no other choice right now, don't you?"

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"Hey baby, the doctor said you wanted to see me?" Shane said taking a seat in the chair beside her hospital bed.

"Yeah, there's something I need to tell you about, not to mention I didn't want to see you pacing around outside the room anymore." Hayley said cracking a small smile.

"Well you can tell me anything you know, I think we've gotten good at that."

"Shane, this is more serious then you think it is."

"How serious?"

"I'm really sick. There is no easy way to explain all of this away, and I should have told you about it before, when we started getting close, but I wanted to do it all on my own, I thought I could handle it."

"Okay, so your starting to worry me here, do what alone?"

"Shane, I'm sick. They don't know for sure what it is at the moment, but from the looks of all the tests and such, its Ovarian."

"What does that mean? I'm sorry sweetie, but I'm not a girl or a doctor."

"I have cancer Shane."

"What?"

"I have ovarian cancer Shane. The doctors don't want to say that it is for sure, but I know it is, my mother had it, and her mother before her. Its completely genetic and I'm now on the receiving end of it."

"You have cancer? You can't have cancer! You are absolutely fine and healthy looking to me. The doctors must be mistaken."

"No, they aren't, and I'm not healthy, I just play it like I am. I've been sick on and off for years and now it's hitting the fan and getting worse. I fainted on you tonight, and then at the mall the other day I took sharp pains and bleeding in my abdomen with Summer."

"So Summer knows?"

"She does, because I really had no other choice but tell her. I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner Shane, I thought I could deal with this all on my own like I have been."

"This can be treated right?"

"It can be, but I've been putting it off so long, it might be too late."

"This cant be happening right now. I cannot believe what I'm hearing here Hayley. I just meet you, I fall in love with you and now you're sick?"

"What did you just say Shane?'

"I said, I meet you and well god we are so close, you're my best friend on top of everything, and you're sick. Why didn't you tell me?"

"Shane, I thought I could this on my own. I didn't want to bring this up with you this soon in our relationship. I enjoy every moment I am with you, why would I want to ruin it, and make you look at me differently. But that's not what I asked you, did you say you loved me?"

"Yes Hayley. I know it's like way to soon to feel this way, believe me I do. I mean I didn't want anything serious but this is all it is to me now. I'm laying myself on the line here, and saying that yes Hayley Carmichael I do love you. I think I always have."

"Even now?"

"God Hayley, even more so now. You can tell me anything, you know that. I have never once told you to lie to me to spare me have I?"

"Not once, but are you sure you love me?"

"I've never been surer of anything in my life princess. I just, god we're going to get you through this, so I can show you how much I love you."

"I love you too Shane."

"What?"

"You heard me buster, I didn't say anything else to hide it like you do."

"You love me?"

"Yes, can you handle that?"

"If you'll let me handle it, then I can. Can we make it through this Hayley?"

"Shane, I think we can make it through anything together now. I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner baby."

"Don't worry about it. How soon can I take you home?"

"As soon as the doctor clears me to leave I would assume."

Shane moved closer to the bed and smiled at her. When he did that her stomach just did flips. There was really something about this man that made him perfect for her. She couldn't imagine not being with him everyday of her life. She wanted to make this man happy. Shane brushed his hands across her cheeks and moved in and kissed her gently. As soon as he touched her the sparks flew, and he knew this was the girl he would love like no other before. She was a keeper.

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